I like to end each month reflecting on my blessings and thinking about what is yet to come. Today I had one of those deep reflection moments. Just me, a white mocha cappuccino and my daily planner. As I do every morning, I drop the boys off at school and come home to plan my day. It’s hard to relax because I am fighting off sneezes and a miserable stuffy nose. But today I am more confident, happy and relaxed than I have ever been, because I see my glass half full and I am just thankful for spring and saying goodbye to my uggs.
As I glance through my planner, I can’t help but think about things in my life that have changed. Friendships that are no longer, friendships that have blossomed and how when you least expect it; the other shoe drops. I still see that the glass is half full and realize that even though I don’t have all the same relationships I had last year, I have made new ones. The people who have walked out of my life are not the people God intended to be in my life.
In five short month’s I will be thirty-five years old. It is mind-boggling to me that in what feels like overnight, I grew up. I have spent the past 14 years doing normal adult things. Albeit not in the most traditional order, but I had a baby, went back-to-school, got married and added two more children to my life. I have evolved and grown up, a lot. I have no problem owning who I am and the choices (good and bad) I have made. I am finally proud of the skin I am in, the person I have become and excited for the road ahead. I have my reservations and worries about what lies ahead, but in the grand scheme of things my glass is half full. And you know what? It feels good.
Just like that, I have grown up and stopped overreacting, worrying and caring. Yup, I don’t care what people think, because those that judge don’t matter. I don’t care if my choices are different from yours, because that’s the beauty in being my own person. I stopped comparing my life to others. It is liberating and refreshing to listen to that voice inside of my head and stop making choices based on other people. I can’t say it is an age thing, but it is definitely a life choice that has made me a better person.
Today I am more confident, happy and relaxed than I have ever been, because I see my glass half full.